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Friday, 22 November 2013

I Think It's Only Natural

Lately, I have been madly in love with Kaji Yuki, thanks to Radio Misty~
And when I do some stalking searching in google about him, I found out about the newest rumor about him..
Well, it was posted for 8-9 months ago, but still, this is the latest gossip I got about him this year..

He was rumored to be in relationship with seiyuu Hanazawa Kana~
Seriously, I never knew that this type of Ouji would be rumored with such cute seiyuu~
I mean, hey this is a good news~!

And just like I always do when I absorb such news: comparing it to myself~
Yeah, pretty epic, I know, but that's the truth

In the first of November, I wished a new boyfriend... A Japanese Boyfriend
It did sound so silly, but I guess it would be acceptable for a forever-alone-girl-type like me
If you asked me how could such silly thing related with the prince's rumor, I'll tell you: I do really think that I would never be appropriate for Japanese guys' taste.

Those guys also dreamt on having a beautiful, cute, and slim girlfriend, which I have to admit that really don't relate to me much
It's not being a pessimist to me, it's facing reality, I guess

People always said that love should just see the inner rather than the outside. I tell you what, I am helplessly desperate about such phrase.
I mean, I know that nobody's perfect, but they would still choose the better one rather than the original and ordinary one like me. Well, I can't say that I am ordinary though, since I'm weirdo to people around me.
When I look at some of my net friends who expose their beautiful photos, I really feel like I lost my confidence at once and I feel like no hope in having my ideal boyfriend. LOL

Even when I think about people who are out of my reach like those awesome seiyuus, I feel like I would never be able to be in the same world with them.
How I realized that I am extremely different from my friends, I feel that my existence is somewhat just an invincible in their worlds.
I can not express my feelings inside and it seems like nobody even would give a fuck about it
It's not their faults though, it was all my faults actually..
When I got to know with new people, I automatically being introvert about myself...
When my friends asked me to hang out, all I can do is rejecting them and daydreaming inside my room how cool it will be if I were there together with them.
And when it's about relationship, I always feel like nobody could understand me and I feel like I still haven't found the one I can leaned on.

Come to think about it, I reminded about my sissies who still got no clue of having new boyfriends
And somehow, I think it is only natural that girls from my family can't have such normal life...

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